Gibraltar Road. 2:16 p.m.I have been walkin' for 26 miles already, at least that's what it feels like. =) Hahaha.
Now am sittin' somewhere here near the Forest Nursery. It's not boring, it's not that fun, not that happy either... but it's definitely refreshin' and peaceful. Peace isn't necessarily synonymous to being happy naman diba?
So it's all good, it's nice... somehow.
People watchin' and nature trippin' can be alleviating every now and then, pero kapag ginawa mo sa Manila yun, you must be dead bored talaga... I think...
Why am I here I ask myself... I mental noted 5 things... and well, sorta wrote them here in my cell too... c",)
1. To be as far away as possible from all the people I know and the people I love... so when I get back I can appreciate them more and, of course, love them even more. It isn't like it's hard loving them. I love loving them, it's the easiest thing but sometimes being away from them makes you just miss them and makes you feel like loving them a lot more.
2. To realize that I have a fuckin' great job but am just so sick of... that maybe I'd learn to appreciate it more... or leave when I get back.
3. To think and ask God why after all the shitty things I did in the past and still am doin', why after being a jerk, he's still so good to me. He showers me tons of blessings though I honestly feel undeserving... but am grateful anyways. I just feel guilty kasi I can't seem to return Him any favors at all. He surrounds me with all these good people despite my having bad company around... nevertheless he lets me see good things in everyone. My question is WHY ME!? Why not the more deserving ones? The blessings just make me feel guiltier.
4. To appreciate myself more, love myself ever further. However which way you look at it, I am loving the idea. I haven't really taken that much time into looking at myself and say, "hey, i'm giving you my attention this time, it's your turn..."
and... 5. And I think the most important of all... MAGPAHINGA!!!....
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Hahaha. May nakisindi askin' if I got a light. Eh di naman ako nagyoyosi ngayon... old pickup line? Maybe. Anyway, am cutting down and soon, quitting. Whatever! I gave her the lighter (from my pocket, by the way)... =) Turista din yata like myself, hahah.Anyhow, if you haven't tried doin' this, it's never too late. I mean going somewhere really far (ALONE!!!), far from the people you know.
Homesickness is inevitable but just focusing on your goal (learned that from work, thank you!) and its pay offs, it's all worth it (expenses included =)). We all have our ways of dealin' with stress and life in general, this strategy really works for me, it always has (First time was actually in Iba, Zambales). So if nothing else works for you, try this.
The only things that connect me with my origin (aka Manila) are my low-techkie digital camera and my handy dandy =) cellphone with tons of its MP3s (You're not actually expecting me to listen to the chirping of the birds and the breeze of the wind, are you? So don't push it! Hahah. And yeah, unlimited video camering too (is there even such a word? but you get my point!).
Oh well, as I end this BLOG-sorta thing for all the people I know and love, lemme quote Michael Jackson in one of his popular songs...
"...am gonna make a change for once in my life... it's gonna feel real good, gonna make a difference... gonna make it right..."
"...am starting with the man in the mirror... am askin' him to change his ways... and no message could have been any clearer... if you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself, and then make a change..."
Well, I don't really know if I am actually gonna be a better person after this so called "touring alone" that I'm doing but am definitely gonna change...
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So much for my TO END THIS BLOG THINGY, may quote pa from MJ. =)Add ko lang, gutom na talaga ako pero ayoko mag-FX o mag-taxi, sampal na tsinelas sa mukha ko yun, hahah, and will totally defeat the whole purpose of my nature trippin'. =)
I bought a map, so no one would notice am lost. =) (As if them seeing me with a map would actually convince them here I'm a local, heheh)
Exciting but tiring maglakad but what the fuck, it's healthy. It's freezin' kahit may araw, so kamusta pawis nasan ka? Am missing you!!! Haha.
I'm gonna start walking now. If I get lucky I'll meet another soul (Oh yeah, I remember am in Baguio, I mean if I get lucky I'LL MEET ANOTHER "WARM-BLOODED" HUMAN BEING), and make yet another friend...
Oh yeah, I made one last night, by the way. Share ko lang ulit. N.B. GCF!!! (Good Clean Fun). Went "tiangge-ing" lang. Bought some "astig" coin purses and a bag for a cousin back in Manila for "pampasalubong".... =)
FIN...
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